Like many of us, I grew up in church, and considered myself to be a Christian throughout my life.

At times I tried very hard to truly follow Christ, but did not learn to do so victoriously until I became desperate during a bout of debilitating panic attacks. Previous to that, I had been involved in homosexual relationships and addictive cycles with alcohol and drugs, and had struggled with deep depression and anxiety throughout my life.

When the panic attacks hit so severely, I understood I had a choice between life and death, and thankfully, I chose life. The first scripture spoken over my life at that time has become one that I have consistently decreed over myself. It is Isaiah 43: 1 -3: “Don’t be afraid, because I have saved you. I have called you by name, and you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. When you cross rivers, you will not drown. When you walk through fire, you will not be burned, nor will the flames hurt you. This is because I, the Lord, am your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.”

I hung on to God and His promise with everything I had in me, and as the months passed, the panic lessened, and I began to gradually walk in more and more victory as I listened to His voice, and obeyed His promptings. I was learning to walk in this victory when I heard about Let Go Let God Ministries. During personal ministry sessions I received total freedom in many areas, and understanding of the roots that caused so much pain in me, and the doors I opened to sin. Rejection, guilt, shame, and self-hatred were areas that held me in a lot of bondage, but I have been delivered and am learning to walk in my true identity and beauty. I have been freed from addiction, anxiety and depression, and experience the joy of the Lord more all the time. I am also being equipped to walk in my calling and destiny.

I have gained so much clarity in who I am in the Lord, what my gifting are, and what I am called to. What started as a journey out of desperation, became a deep hunger for the heart of God, and a complete surrendering to His will and not my own. I am deeply grateful for the grace of the Lord and His gentleness in carrying me out of sin and pain, and setting my feet upon a solid rock. The Lord has saved me, called me by name, and stayed with me through the waters and the fire as He promised. Because of His amazing love, I can walk in freedom and joy, and walk out everything He has anointed me to do.